January 25th 2019: 2/1/2019 Multiple nights in the ER January 29 to February 4th, 2019 awful feelings with my heart and body 😦


Will be in the hospital until further notice…will try my best to record and document my dreams and finish doing personal requests. My aorta has gotten larger (4.5m) since the valve replacement in September so I may need another open heart procedure at JFK hospital. This means using another bone saw to reopen my sternum…great joy here. FYI I turn 50-years-old on the 8th of February. I’m still taking reading requests and actually have more free time in the hospital than I do at home (and for some reason hospital DDs test to be even more accurate that than those taken from my room) so if you have a question, please ask it…I still need to earn an living.
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January 25th 2019: Well, it turns out I’m going to need another open heart surgery!! At this point I really don’t care anymore…the sadness is unbelievable.


January 8th 2019: Not 100% sure yet, but these 2 lottery dreams from the same night may have helped to prove a new lucid dreaming technique I use I first wake up in the morning…if so then public lottery requests are taking just weeks, not months and years to come true!
And remember, I do offer a private lottery numbers service with guaranteed results…see as there may be new slots open today. (if not, check back in a month or so)


January 5th, 2019: I AM GOING TO DIE..
If I don’t change my ways right now. Before I explain this I want to share a quick summary of my life to date. I was born with a bicuspid aortic heart valve, with means my valve only has two leaflets compared to a normal of three. Your aortic heart valve regulates all the blood exiting your heart and is about the width of a quarter. When I was born (1969 Loraedo, TX USAF hospital) doctors thought it was a hole in my heart, growing up I remember to allot of wires (EKG’s) but with no ill effects…I was even able to join the US Army in 1989 with a waver and served 12 years with no issues. It was not until I was 40 or so I noticed something was wrong, so I had an ultrasound done and discovered that I would need surgery by the time I was 50 or I would die of heart failure. Nine years later, I went into heart failure…my body was filling up with fluid and I could barely breathe.
On another note, I was diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2005, a condition that runs in my family…I lost my uncle and little sister to what ‘the voices’ told them to do. My condition is treatable and I believe helps me to use my dreams and voices to predict future events…I also believe its possible that anyone can do this, not just me.
What it’s like hearing voices?
This is the best way I can explain it for the normal person…most people have thoughts racing in their minds during the day, these voices are commonly called self-talk. Most of the time self-talk is repetitive and useless…but the normal person is aware that this self-talk is coming from their own brain…in a schizophrenic person, she or he sometimes is not aware of the source of this brain activity. Ever since my open heart surgery this year, I’ve been almost totally inactive and eating way more food than I should…right now I weight 250-pounds (39 BMI) versus my normal bodyweight of 180…this is awful, embarrassing and will kill me if I don’t do something about it now. Make no mistake, being overweight is my fault and there are no excuses…not even medical issues.
As you may have noticed in my blog, I love food…and luckily the food I enjoy is mostly healthy. I used to run on a daily basis and doing so let me eat basically as much as I wanted plus I’m fortunate that I don’t like sweet stuff and sugary drinks. So starting today I’m going to get back into shape…I’m also start using past dreams to help me do so. I have set a goal for myself, a high goal, but an achievable goal…I want to run and fishing (don’t care what place) the Saint Judes Memphis Marathon on December 7th, 2019 If you wish to follow my progress or share yours on Fit bit, please do so…I have more than 10 months to be ready…and I will be. I will also be posting my progress in on my blog, if you need to lose weight, maybe what I’m doing can help you too achieve your goal.

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December 31st to January 2nd, 2019 was spent in the hospital…again! I had a bp of 210 over 120! This was related my new On-x aortic heart valve…my blood pressure is normal now and hopefully, I will not need to spend any more nights in the hospital…but the staff was wonderful and the food was great!


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